From the Inside Out

FROM THE INSIDE OUT

Waking up one day to find yourself inside this body, this form, asking yourself the question "How did this happen, how did I get here?" Then the journey begins. All of us wake up to this realisation at some point. The realization that we are indeed Spirirual beings engaging in a human experience. Not the other way around as is often the case when spiritual awareness is seen as an option.

When this waking up happens, mostly what happens is we put it back to sleep. Its too much, it asks too much personal responsibility. Its so intense a realization that we forget until the next time when the opening occurs, when the light shines through. Our light, our precious light, our essence. the mirror of the divine within each and every one of us.


Often intense sabotage patterns arise again and again to try and put us back to sleep, to the place of suffering and ignorance. The inner battle begins. Egos struggle to survive, to prevent itself being washed clean, being annihilated by the magnificent light of Spiritual awareness.

This is the beginning. Often mistaken for the end. Awakening in the body can feel like a trap, an imprisonment in the mire of our own ignorances. Only when we embrace the journey and transform through intent, the vehicle, this body, to be the truest companion, the ideal partner. The partner that we often only look for outside. Only then do we embrace the path of transformation. When we embrace this body as companion while compassionately and gently meeting our difficulties, only then does the real journey, the real healing begin.

The end becomes the beginning as we gaze on and uncover behaviours that do not serve the awakened inner essence. That, in fact, shock it more and more into awakening even further as it chisells away like a master sculptor on the dense, karmic patterns that have moulded us into the caricitured personas that we call ourselves. Patterns that have hardened as we passed through education, religious upbringing and the materialistic culture into which we were born, which is starved of Spiritual integrity.


THE STRUGGLE TO BECOME WHOLE

The struggle to become whole begins with this waking up into our present conditions. Until we know where we are real change cannot happen. When we gaze passionately, yet dispassionately and compassionately on our own condition without blame or shades of victim mentality. When we empower ourselves to heal each and every block toward our own liberation from ignorance and suffering, no matter what. Only then are we truly on the path. Freedom from suffering does not mean that we will not experience pain and loss, but it does mean that our response to our daily experiences, whatever they may be, can be embraced by and with truth, with trust, with clarity and knowing that all is well and all is occurring within the divine order and that, no matter what, we are always held, always being further honed, further chisselled by the divine spark within ourselves that has truly become alive.


RIDE ON

Somethings beginning

Somethings ending

Lifes cycles raging through and around us.

Something new

Something old

Someone born

Beginnings and endings merging into one.

Life coaxing us on to join in the endless dance

Come on Come on Don't stop dancing now

Don't stop dancing just as the wind is catching your sails

Jump on the gust Ride the waves of the ceaseless seas of beginnings and endings

Rise up like the phoenix surging new life from old ashes

Somethings always beginning Somethings always ending Ride on....


OWNING AND DISOWNING

There is the personal journey and there is the collective journey and both are inextricably linked. No one walks alone. Upon awakening to and owning that we are indeed spiritual beings arrived here into this human experience to remember wholly who we are. To become truly that, a human being, not an animal wallowing in greed, lust and ignorance at the mercy of the prevailing cultural storms.
Upon this awakening our whole world, our whole intent toward our every experience changes, turns around from what and how we have been living before that point. Spiritual awareness is not a luxury for the few, it is the eternal realm of all. It is what will not only redeem ourselves but our world our planet. Primarily unconscious of this great power that drives us, this breath that breathes us, we journey in ignorance toward ignorance.

Without awakening to the breath that breathes us we are indeed living in the dark with no knowledge of this tremendous essence that contains us, permeates through each cell of our bodies, that which birthed us and that which will embrace us at the end of the adventure we call our life. We are Spiritual beings who have forgotten, only to take on this arduous journey to remembering.


HERE BEFORE

Something called me and I answered denuded now by a foreign understanding I discovered I was here before.

There's an eye in the needle that beckons us through vacant space of supreme possibility requiring no question requiring no answer.

I witness passion arising rested by expanded vacancy

Breathing a mildly strained sigh I surrender I remember I was here before.

I am not a scientist, philosopher, mystic, psychotherapist or saint. I am a human being remembering. remembering daily what I have forgotten. While remembering, it is the time to shed and disown aspects of the human form, this caricature of the divine being, that we have become. We must shine with our own light. Shedding and dissolving down to the bare bones, down to our naked rawness and here we will begin the journey home hand in hand with the divine spark. It is each of our personal responsibility to recognise and disown what is not useful, what it is within ourselves that does not mirror our truth and our essence and prevents us dancing daily to the music of the vast universe that we inhabit and that we are. Only then, as we embrace that journey can we make an impression on a world drenched in suffering and torment. With personal responsibility comes collective shifts. As we make peace with our demons they dissolve allowing for the vast energies that have been tied up in holding and contracting to be released. This energy, far from being lost, is now used in service of the new life. If each of us travels the path to light, through what it is we have forgotten and remember our divinity, then a realm shift is indeed possible, is indeed happening.


A REALM SHIFT IS HAPPENING

Each on of us carries in our matrix, our flesh and bones make up, the shadow of the lie. This untruth that we " are not made in the image of God/Goddess". that we are " not the breath of the divine". These are the untruths we have inherited by forgetting. No blame. Time to remember now, time to remember again our own true light. The light that permeates all things, all beings, all times. This light we must remember to recognise in everyone we meet, everything we see. There is no place that it is not. We are here, collectively to remember this truth. To walk the middle road of balance and remembering, allows the heart to speak and to listen. To listen ever so deeply to its inherent, timeless wisdom.

BIG DEAL, NO BIG DEAL


GODDESS WITHIN ME GODDESS BEFORE ME GODDESS BEHIND ME GODDESS BESIDE ME GODDESS ABOVE ME GODDESS BELOW ME GODDESS INSIDE ME TO PROTECT AND TO GUIDE ME GODDESS EXPLORE ME. SO THAT ALL BEINGS MAY BENEFIT.

GOD WITHIN ME GOD BEFORE ME GOD BEHIND ME GOD BESIDE ME GOD ABOVE ME GOD BELOW ME GOD INSIDE ME TO PROTECT AND GUIDE ME SO THAT ALL BEINGS MAY BENEFIT.

We are living in an imbalanced world. a world where male and female are at odds, divorce, violence, mistrust and addiction are rampant. We must, in order to heal this open wound, find balance within.

 This article was written early 2002

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